The Current State of the Union :]

I’M OVER RAPH!I’M OVER RAPH!I’M OVER RAPH!

~TAKE THAT SUCKERS!!!

…okay. well he has a girlfriend now so I kind of HAVE to be over him…but this was not a force it was a choice!

So I WIN!!

…maybe.

I don’t know.

All I know is that Sheldon is pretty damn amazing.

And YES Sheldon is back in…

The Following May or May Not Be Fictional

Him: I want to make love to you

Me: I want to make love to you too

Him: When

Me: I don’t know. When do you want to?

Him:You tell me when

Me: Why?

Him: Just say it

Me:I don’t know when. After we’ve been together a while.

Him: See I love you more.

My boyfriend wants me to have sex with him. We’ve hardly been dating a week…and he says he’s falling for me. He tells me he loves me every night. I stay up talking with him utnil 12 almost everynight.

It’s tiring.

Having a boyfriend is tiring.

But I guess it just has to be that way.

He wants to make love to me. And is always asking me when. He says he’ll wait, that it’s up to me. That I can stop him if he tries.

But I know this is a lie.

I know and he knows in his heart it is.

I don’t know WHY he’s so obsessed with the idea of sex. Why it sounds so…why he wants it.

I mean, of course I know. He’s a guy. Guys want sex.

At least, most of them do. Except, maybe the Jonas Brothers…

But ANYways…

I know he’s lying when he says he’ll wait. And I know I’m lying when I say he’ll be my first. I don’t know how long we’ll last. I think about this too much. About lasting. People say it’s negative and I shouldn’t. But…I do and I can’t help it.

I think what scares me the most is the fact that I’ll let him. Probably. And I’m scared of what will happen if I do…

Will I feel empty?

Get pregnant?

Hate it?

Like it?

Will HE like it?

The questions swirl through my head every night when he tells me.

He’s always asking why I want to wait.

I guess there’s not really a reason is there?

I mean, God is telling me not to.

And so is society.

But God also led me to him. And society can’t control my life.

My boyfriends wants to have sex with make love to me.

iliketoast:

loveisagoldfish:vacantheart:

Type the alphabet and stop at the letter of the last person you kissed.

abcdefghijklmnopqr

Who sits next to you in english?
Marie on my left annnd Olivia on my right :]

Who was the last person you talked to before you went to bed last night?
My mother =T

Where did your last kiss take place?
My street…directly acoss from Mara Circle :P

Would you consider your parents to be strict?
YES! x100000000. It’s kind of ah-nnoying -.-

Have you ever tackled someone to the ground?

Hehe. Yeeah. Stephen :P

Is your last name longer than 6 letters?
Nope.

What was the last thing you wore that was black?
Um…my sweater/sweatshirt/jacket thing :P

Do you say the F word a lot?
Kinda. I really try not to.

Have you kissed anyone with the name starting with a J?

Um…nope. (haha. I like how I pretended to think about that :P I’ve only kissed two people.)

What happened a year ago in this month?
I…um…OH! Was at home I’m pretty sure. Excited it was the week of Christmas Break (haha. I’m a losahh)

What’s the last thing that went into your mouth?
Nature’s Promise Natural Vegetable Chips and Fuze, the slenderize kind

When was the last time you laughed really hard that you cried? And why?
I never do…it’s weird. I just laugh until I can’t breath.

Do you have a mirror in your room?

Yeeeep.

How about a TV?
Yesh

Would you hug the last person you hugged again?
My Boyyyfriend <3

Can you be your complete self around the person you like?
I don’t really know. Who/What is my complete self?

Do you have alcohol in your house?

Yes…wine,wine,wine

Did you like anyone last summer?
Yes…BAD decision.

The last person to be under covers with you?
Umms…I don’t know. Oh yeah, Maddie and Marlena. SLEEP OVERRR :p

Do you think you can last in a relationship for 3 months?

Yep. I’ve lasted five.

If someone told you that you were a player, what would you say back?
I’d just laugh and say they were lying…cause I’m not. At. All. xP

How old will you be in 5 years?
20! OH-EM-GEEE!!!

What happened at 10:00 am today?

Math Midyears -.- ‘nuff said.

Is any part of your body sore?

Uhh…not really…no.

Where is the one boy/girl you want to see the most right now?

Um…I don’t know. At his house? Ha. I doubt that. With his friends…maybe…aha

Last night you felt?

Tired. And Nervous. And Sad-ish. And I wanted a call.

Are you taller than 5’5”?
No…*sigh*

Do you wish someone was with you right now?

DEFINITELY X10!

Stayed single almost the whole year?

Um…kinda…sorta…yeah. The relationship just started…three days ago. So…

If you were 12 and you could see yourself now, would you be disappointed?

Not really…But kind of.

Told your parents you were going somewhere but went somewhere else?

Yessss. On Sunday :]

Favorite quote?

That’s too hard. There’s too many. And it’ll make all the other quotes feel bad <:T

First place you went this morning?
After my room? Bathroom to brush my teeth.

What if the last person you texted told you they had feelings for you?
They did. And I love them for it :]

What are you drinking?

Nada. Finished the Fuze.

Do you have clothes that are not yours?
Yep. A bunch from my older cousin and stuff.

You see your ex and he/she tells you he/she misses you and you say?
I’d tell him to shut up. That he didn’t. And to get over himself. He hurt me so much, I really wouldn’t care.

Who is the first person you would call if you needed help?
EMILY!!! I love her :]

Is sex the most important thing in a relationship?

Not. At. All.

If someone cheated on you, would you take them back if you really loved them?
No because they never really truly loved me, did they?

Got in any fights this year, 2010?
Arguments? Yes. Tons.

Have you ever liked someone who treated you super shitty?
Yes. I don’t know why. I’m…tres weird.

Did you wake up to someone attractive recently?
Nope.

Have you ever been bitten by a dog?

No! I would cry SO. MUCH! hehe

What is the worst possible way to die?
Without having people you loved or people who love you.

Honestly, why are you taking this survey?
I’m procrastinating…and waiting to go to guitar :]

How many times have you kissed the last person you kissed?

Two times that day :]

What do you look like right now?

Eh. Ok I guess.

Cried recently? :T
Yep! Last night

Do you like sushi?
OH YEAH! Super Yummy+Tres Good+Low In Calories=Sushi :D

Your number two walks out of your life, do you go after them?
Um…you mean him? No. I’d let them go.

Do you find it weird that some people brush their teeth in the shower?

No…*cough* Idothatsometimes *cough*

Describe how you’re feeling today:
Worried, Missing Him, Kinda Lonely, Anxious.

Why do you think that is?
Um…too long to explain?

Will you be in a relationship 1 month from right now?

Maybe. It’s still hard to tell.

Did you have a Valentine for last Valentine’s Day?

Um…nope. -.- (again with the pretending to think about that one…)

Do you ever think about what went wrong in your last relationship?

No. I just think about what we DID was wrong.

Secret #2: I Had A “Friend With Benefits”

~For,like, a day and a half :P

Did I let you down? hehe. Sorryyyy x]

EEEEEP!

HE said I love you!

EEEEP! Ok, maybe just as a friend. But he still said it.

I think I really like Raph.

I don’t really know why.

He has freckles. They run across his nose. And he is Portuguese. That’s a step closer to Cape Verdean. And we both love soccer…

I like him don’t I?

Yeah. I know I do. I love that. He makes me smile.

He gave me BIG hugs all this week. And I gave him his birthday socks. And he wore them the next day :] And he said I love you and I said I love you more. And HE asked for MY number.

AND I ACTUALLY REMEMBERED IT :D

So…yeah. Raph…is the new? crush? really now…haha. That’s a werid thing to say. But I think I’m finally, truly over Adam hehe